Actually, the Shaw/Tumblin collection was discussed and offered to Coalson with much excite but in the end was going to cost a great deal of money to host it, several thousand dollars that we were just not in a position to pay so I appologise for your disappointment. However just as God would have it, The University of Ga called and are most excited to join us for our celebreation and will bringing their collection for our guest to see so we hope you will join us as we celebreat the 70th anniversary of Gone With the Wind here at Coalson Plantation. Yeah God!! He, who always opens a window !!!!

Joshua was 5 years old. Beautiful and a powerful child of God so gifted that he glowed with the light that was in him. He was diagnosed with a childhood cancer that is quick progressive. Though 90% curable, the danger was reoccurance…only a 5% chance, but if so…there was little to no hope for there had been no survivers of a reoccurance and there was no data of how to treat….after 2 years of radiation and chemotheraphy and all that goes with this treatment Joshua was pronounced cancer free…..a couple of months later…he reoccured…we were in big trouble…I stood over my son and watched him die every day for 5 years…One morning I stood at the foot of his bed, this child that I loved lie so helpless, so small, so very tired…his arms were streatched to each side to accomodate the needles in his arms I thought how he looked like Jesus on the cross, and it was then I said to my God….. WEll Lord…I finally know how Mary felt, my son is innocent. Cancer is his cross to bear, and those needles are nails in his hands… so I prayed that mothers prayer and begged god to heal my son, to take this cross from him. I give him back to you Oh God for he is not mine but yours and like Mary…I love him enough to let him go”. Lord not my will but yours..Let thy will be done.

I asked the Lord to heal Joshua and if to do that ment he had to take him to take him. I asked this..IF you do take him Lord…please don’t let me go crazy, please allow me to remember what his little hands looked like, what his hair smells like. I have two other sons that still need me.

Then I realized that this cancer was not about Joahua….it was about me…Satan was attacking my baby to get me…did he think I would blame God? Wonder where my miracle was???? Curse the heavens? I said outloud…I get it..I know what is happening here…..”Satan you have no power here, I rebuke you in the name of Jesus, you take your hands off this baby right now in the HOLY name of MY JESUS…Me loosing my boy to you …is not an option…you might make him sick, you might mame his body and ravage his system you might even kill him but when he lets go of my hand on this side Jesus will be there holding on to to the other to take him to the promised land and you loose either way so be gone…you have no power here. I started laughing and praising God outloud because I knew I had just whooped that old liar the devil good…LOL prais GOD!!!

This I am telling you my friends that a light came through the hospital window, and shone down on my son who was 7 years old and weighed 23 pounds, bald, yellow, and dying,nailed there to his cross…and he opened his eyes…color came back to his face….and he said Momma…I am hungry!!! AND I KNEW…I KNEW..Jesus and performed a miracle. Not long after…Joshua walked out of that hospital and he is 16 years old today,strong, healthy and cancer free. HE his lost his right eye in the battle but it is a visual witness to the world that often gives him an opportunity to witness to the world when asked about it. To tell them of Gods love and his miracle. We celebrate Gods power and thank him and as his mother I am so blessed to have been given this child to love and to stand for. WE don’t always understand but we must stay faithful. God is always with us and he is still in the miralce business. I hope this helps you in some way and I thank Virigina Morton for giving me this forum to share my story with you. Peace…be still..God said, ” I already know you have need of these things and have already provided them.” I am available to all of you and to your churches or groups to speak and tell you my story again and again which is all God has ask me to do…tell them!!!!! I hope to write this story some day and publish it to give strength to desperate parents facing the same trials. I have also written a song that will hopefully accompany it. I ask you to be in prayer with me that God will bring into my path the right people to help me see this project through. To witness and to raise needed monies for pediatric cancer research in the field of Rhabdomyosarcoma. May God bless you all.

Pamela Harris